Liars cheaters and Lovers

I am not one to moan... much! but this last week has been turbulant! Id give eastenders a run for its money! For those who pay attention, my last blog post mentioning ppl actually started out as a suicide note... I was in that bad of a place :(

Anyways..... The last week.....

Liars.... well a few ppl fall into this category, the first one is the Wildcat, lying about all sorts of things more details will follow laters. The next liar is a so called 'Friend' trying to interfere in my life and denying it.. guess what... Im not stupid and I get told all sorts of things!!!!

Cheaters..... only one person fits this category... the Canadian Wildcat... apparantly madly in love with me.. at the start of the 'relationship' she is fooling about with both men and women, this she confirmed on the fone. Also she spends less time chatting to me and hanging out with her 'friend' blonde bimbo. I tell her she needs to talk to me about this, I get nothing in response so tell her its over. A week later I find out blonde bimbo has dropped her for what ever reason and the next day I get a text off her.... I tell her I spent 2 days crying over her, I was heartbroken and that its well and truley over.... nuff sed I have moved on from that... I dont need shit like that in my life. 

Lovers.... this may seem bizarre and fast moving fer some to believe and I will need to start this from the beginning.... Dee is a friend of mine, we chat now and then, I love talking to her, she makes me smile and is there for me when I need her! Well she was with the wildcat first. The wildcat splits with her, I get with the wildcat and well there is nothing but DRAMA!!! i lost a very close friend :( and I was gutted I made such a stupid mistake :( well me and the Wildcat split up (WAHOOOO! I hear ppls say!) and well Dee and I unite in heartache... we have a bitch fest and declare things are forgotten and we can move on. I leave it at that. I go to sleep and the next day... Dee is the only one on my mind, the first thing I thought of when I woke up... yups even b4 coffee!!! well we get talking, skyping and speak for hours... and b4 we know it we are telling each other we love each other... it comes from no where, a massive shock to my system as well. Im fresh from a weird virtual relationship, she (wildcat) is not even in my mind and its like WOW! I really do love this person, I wana be with her. We agree we will take things slowly slowly. See how things pan out.... and since then we have spoken everyday, be it by yahoo, text, facebook or skype. As of today she is coming to visit in 10 days WAHOOOOOOOOO!  


I cant wait to finally meet her, we know so much about each other and I know when she comes down I wont want her to leave. I can really talk to Dee, usually I find it hard to open up to someone face to face and I find myself sharing things with her over video, some things I have never shared with anyone. Have I found 'the one' with Dee, the answer is its too early to tell but Im already visioning a future :) I will say one thing... Dee get ur funking ass down here so I can hold you in my arms... its been a long time a coming!!!!


in other news.....
I have rekindled some old friendships and made some new ones... all RMX (Rainbow Mix Radio) crew.... I dont get out much... stoopid agraphobia, but OMGG what a laugh we have in the chatroom, the main topic atm is food and sex... wet noodles, tipless sausages and cucumber to say the very least!!!!! I have also found myself falling in love with the station, the people are ace. The Dj's awesome (bar one!) and the fact its live and you can make Dj's stutter and things with our antics is awesome. Thank you Ms Karen for thinking up the brain child :o)


Okies, Ive waffled long enuf, more at a later date.. most probs icky mushy stuff as well Im in it fer the long haul with my angel :o) x