Rodents and Op

Sadly since my Last post Gracey has died. I went to change his bed on the Sunday and he was laying curled up and riga had set in, its very sad and kinda ironic that he died to weeks after my Gracey. I was very sad and annoyed as I only appopted him a week before, so a trip to pets at home to complain, the assisstant was puzzled and let me have a replacement, so I choose two Chinese Dwarf hammys, they are female and I named them Onyx and Eddie. A couple of days later S2 offered to run me down to pets as she was going that way, I needed some cat supplies, we arrived and guess what... A roborosovski dwarf hamster was up for adoption and he came with a cage, I made a donation as I was unable to leave him there. When I went to the check out he also came with food, bedding, sawdust and a mini ball. All I had to do was find a home for his cage, He came with the Name Dick but I renamed him to Marble. 

On Monday I needed to go to QA Hossy for my pre operative assessment, S2 was meant to come with me, however she was full of cold and as I couldnt find another person to go with me I had to go alone... I was bricking it loads. I popped some extra calm me downs and bit the bullet. I had to be there for 9am and looked at bus times etc and found that Id have to leave at 6am and have a lot of waiting around in places and think and panic so I ordered a cab, the cab driver was a lovely lady and more than patient listening to my nervous babble.  I arrived at the hossy with less than half n hour to spare, puffing on 2 cigs and then I had to walk what seemed like a million miles across the hossy I got to D ward. I explained about my panics to the receptionist and didnt have to wait too long to see the nurse. I was weighed and measured, My weight has gone down by 6kg which means my BMI has decreased :o) My Heart rate was 120 BPM and my BP a little lower than normal. I then had to see the Doctor due regarding my medications and my BPD and the effect my operation will have on me mentally. After this meeting I was told I had to go for an ECG due to the high HR then a visit to the vampires to get bloods done this raised the anxiety levels through the roof and I got so worked up I was sick :o( the vampires only took 4 tubes, which is nice compared to the normal 6 I have to give when they check on how my meds are affecting me. After all that and 3 hours in the hossy I was free to go :o) I practically ran to the bus stop and as soon as I got on the bus I was straight on my fone, answering several messages and this kept me occupied during the bus ride. On the bus I was able to put panic bear in my pocket (he was being squished all the way to the hossy and while I was in there!)


I got to Fareham and was desperate for something to eat, grabbing a jacket spud I decided to find a bench and eat in the sun, I was feeling a little bewildered, it hadn't quite sunk in what I'd achieved.