Hyperness and results

The last couple of days I have been on a 'Hyper' you most probably think this is a good thing as Im not depressed and crying, but its actually quite the oposite, it can be quite destructive and be more dangerous in the long run. When I feel hyper I am so bouncy its almost unberable.. I find conversation difficult as I have very little concentration and have a tendancy to babble uncontroably. I also feel invincable in that nothing can harm me and go around almost blinkered, I can see the result and aim for nothing else. Good if Im working on a project, not so good if I am in town, I dont notice the world around me and do silly things like walk into people! Another downside to a hyper is lack of sleep. I went to bed at half 11 last night and was awake at 3am, by 3.30am I was eating breakfast. At 5.20am I was ready for my bed. Thinking I would get a good few hours in I was well up for it. However by 7am I was wide awake and full of energy.

Today I thought Id use my hyper to my advantage, I needed to go to Gosport to do some chores and things. I needed to drop A's dyson at her salon and give her some money and for her to do my fringe. I was really pleased to see her and as she was really quiet due to the Easter holidays I stuck around for a bit, had a squash and we had a good ole natter in  the sunshine. I then needed to do a few things so walked into town and did what I needed to, pet shop, bank and Argos. I then walked through town and practically ignored all the people and market stalls. Though I did notice a young kiddie almost cycling into me!!

Food was the main thought at this point and I looked into all the café's and they were all heaving. I boycotted Macy D's and ended up at the ferry chippy. With chips in hand I went and found a patch of grass at the ferry gardens and sat. I only managed half of my (small) portion and fed the rest to the Gulls. I had noticed the tulips and took in my surroundings listening to the kids playing, I did get annoyed at times when some of them came a little too close for my liking. While I was watching the world go by I realised I was sitting down at the ferry and had walked through Gosport town and had not had a single inkling of a panic attack. This I could see as progress, a big step forward in the direction of positives... but I have been taking extra calm me down meds lately. 

I came home and felt really good, though very tired. Even now Im flagging slighty however I know Im in for a rough night and I fancy waking up at a sensible time so later to bed it is.