Planning and Clearing

I have spent less time crying lately, well on the outside anyway. I have kinda got used to the Idea that Gracey wont be visiting me anymore, but I was still really upset yesterday. It hurts not having Gracey to hug, I have a picture of her that was her fave and I have hung it on my bedroom wall and I have to confess I often talk to it!

Organinsing the memorial is proving a challenge, Hailsham is the place now as Eastbourne didnt have the wake venue I wanted.. I'm REALLY fussy!

I try not to think about her to much atm, coz when I do I get really upset. G-Bear is never too far away and he is now a dirty white.. he has had lots of cuddles, its almost as if Im hugging Grace. Another sad thing is writing my blog, Grace loved reading it and would talk to me about it afterward, I have no idea if people still read it but tbh I dont really care, its here if ppl want to read it!

I have been doing a clearout over the last 4 weeks, I have got rid of so much crap and there is still so much to get rid of, I kinda want to have the minimalist look, less is more and all that!

I have tried selling stuff but to no avail so free cycled most of it! Now I have cleared stuff the next job is my clothes... dont really fancy that job tho, I have LOTS of clothes, but I pplan on getting rid and getting clothes that actually fit, I was loosing weight but think Ive got really REALLY fat lately... tho when I lost weight I kept my boobs so I think a boob reduction is in order soon!!

I have my pre-op assessment on Monday, and my operation on the 28th, Im really nervous already but I know its needed.. I need to have these growths removed before they turn into the big Cancer... I really dont need that atm.

I would also like to mention my friends.... Shell has been so supportive, C&D have been on the other end of the phone and FB, I cant wait to meet these ladies. S sends me random messages at times and I have even spoken to L, we have a love hate relationship atm and a friendship is deffo growing again :) R, S2 and S3 are only next door which is a big help, consdidering they have their own issues. I have finally been able to get hold of Pup, I have really missed talking to her, she is having a REALLY tough time atm and the fact that she has the time to make me smile means a lot. I've not seen much of G&N but they are here and N has been wonderful, I miss seeing her as often as I did... we had some good giggles. A and I are well not doing so good, I have tried to make up to her but without sucess, having been told to F*** Off so I have done, I miss her but the ball is in her court now.

Oh! I have something to lookforward too... Gal nite with T2 and M3 whooooooop and their pups, cant wait and on the 9th of April is S's birthday bash in London and the 101st Tranny brigade will be reunited :o) 


My babies are doing good, they have new collars, cept Furgs, she is hiding upstairs and wont come get hers. Gracey and Barley are sleeping and enjoy cuddles, Barley has a nice new cage and he seems to like it... it makes him think coz o the tubes and thats gota be good for him!!!!


Thats enuf babble for now :o) byeeeeeeeee xXx